Introduction
My name is Xavier. I am a trans man, artist, writer, poet, blogger, and novice webmaster who grew up in the Midwest. If you want to learn more about me, read below 🠣
Name: Xavier H.M.
Age: 27
Birthday: March 23rd
Pronouns: He/him
Lives in: Illinois, USA
My name is Xavier. I'm a 27 year old bisexual trans man. I am also an artist, writer, poet, blogger, and all-around cool dude. Born and raised in Illinois, USA, I'm currently in the process of moving to the UK to be with my wife.
I keep a personal blog, where I document my day-to-day life, shitpost my way through abstract thought, wax poetic about the Midwest, and ponder the nuances of transsexuality.
I've known I was trans since the sixth grade. I've been out full-time since I was 21, and I've been transitioning for almost a decade. I'm pre-op and I've been on T for about eight years. I am a centrist transmedicalist; view my trans page for more info.
My artwork is mostly compromised of self-portraits, modern figurative art, and non-objective abstractions. In recent years I've switched to a digital workflow, developed in tandem with my ventures into tech, Linux, FOSS, and the indie web. I also write poetry and short stories, with aspirations to become a novelist, and a special interest in writing trans male characters.
In 2023, I encountered complications from my transition which resulted in developing chronic pain/illness diagnoses⸺Pelvic Floor Dysfunction and Interstitial Cystitis, respectively. At some point I'll make a dedicated page for my experience and eventual treatment plans.
Outside of art, writing, tech, and trans stuff, I'm also an avid reader and love to travel. [Add more later!!]
More About Me
Having already penned a few blurbs here on my site as well as my blog, any further exposition feels redundant and self-serving. But what's the point of a personal website if not to archive who I am as a person? It's nice to sift through my identity, past, present, and future, and shaping all of it into a retrospective on the person I've worked hard to become⸺and worked even harder still to love and appreciate.
The Beginning
I'm not sure where to begin. I guess the beginning is as good of a start as any.
I was born three months early on March 23rd, 1998, at 3:21 PM. Had the doctors waited two more minutes, my time of birth would have lined up with my birthday. But seeing as I was dying and all nobody had a second to spare, least of all me. My parents have a lot of fun facts about my birth, which they regaled to me so often as a kid that my entrance into the world took on an almost mythic quality in my mind.
I spent two months in the NICU, hooked up to several tubes and wires while baking inside of a high-tech incubator. I weighed one pound, ten ounces. I fit in my fathers hand head to toe, from his fingertips to the base of his palm; he could slide his wedding band past my fist and up my arm, all the way to my shoulder. There are a few Polaroids taken of me like this. One features my parents looking down at me from above my incubator. These photos always frightened me, and gave me the impression that I was more alien than human; that my birth was more of a grotesque twist of fate than some divine miracle.
The moment of my birth was the nearest I've ever been to death. There is no telling how my traumatic entrance to the world, or spending my first two months alive in a glorified Easy Bake oven, had an effect on me. I was lucky in that I had no lasting complications from my premature birth; if I did, they were neither immediately nor eventually apparent. [Will add more later!!!]
Prairie Raised
I was raised in central Illinois. Despite popular opinion, I am infatuated with the flat landscapes of the rural Midwest. Their broad, open skies and endless horizons bring me great comfort, and have made any other locale existentially claustrophobic by comparison⸺whether I find myself in the mountainous western US, the balmy seaside crescent of the Gulf of Mexico, or the verdant hills of England and their brick-and-cobblestone metropolitan counterparts.
This familiarity with the Midwest produced in me a romantic regionalism which I've striven to showcase here on my personal site. Much of the images decorating my site were taken by me while traveling through Illinois.
filler text. I'm a modern/figurative/non-objective artist, writer prolific in fanfiction and unproductive in original fiction, economic poet reliant on slant rhyme, aspiring novelist, and burgeoning blogger.
